spiritually low... losing this close relationship w/ u, God, losting the passion, the fire.. mostly cuz i didn't get to go to the mission trip... guess i gotta serve and live for U everyday.
last spiritual dry was in gr.10, and BCF got me back on my feet again .. there is a sincere heart that yearns for U within me, but there is also part of me that wants to go back to the old comfortable yet deadly self.
i want say it w/ all my heart " I will worship till my breath runs dry" but there just isn't enough passion and motivation within me
i wanna be the prodigal son, but rite just indifferent enough to be the older brother scoffing and complaining.. but the fact is the older brother longs for your loving arms too... just he's got too much pride.. too comfortable where he is now.. maybe that's true for me too
i guess i like to stand on the top of the mountain and forgot that i need to spend days of nites climbing up the mountain
waiting to hear him say "Well done, good and faithful servant!" Until then, sustain me in Your sufficient grace!

on a lighter and happier note:
i realize that my fave colours: pink and blue.. i just noticed that almost everything in my cloest is either blue or pink, one green top and that's it.. so yeah.. was gonna use a blue background again.. but it was too mature and sad for me =P so chose this pink childish happy one instead, cuz i just realized that i have grown up so fast i don't even know myself anymore.. maybe it's time to slow down a bit

things that need to be accomplished this summer:
- find two jobs? (parents want me to)
- get g2 (prolly not enough time)
- and one that's less tangible, grow in Chirst