"Can I Stay Here Forever" Starifeid
Through forgotten convictions
Misplaced affections
I'm losing the sound of Your voice
I've been chasing after emptiness
Trying to tidy up this messI swear
I've been down this road before
I want to get back to where it all began
When I would long for only You
Like a child I'll take You at Your word
As these mountains of doubt, they fade away
I'm longing to trust and love You more
So for me this is beautiful
A brand new thought, and a brand new world
Can I stay here forever here with You?
I've lost sight of what first drew me
To the love that pursued me
The joy that inspired my song
The friendship that was all I knew
The arms that I would fall into
Seem miles and years from where I am today
I got to get back to where it all began
When I would wait for only You
Can I stay here forever
Here with you?
Surrounded by Your mercy
Clothed in Your truth
Always, I'll stayAlways here with You
Can I be here forever
Here with You?
Can I know what it's like
To deeply love You?
Always, Lord, let me stay
Always, here with You

thoughts

feel so alone esp during exam time, everyone is so busy =(
almost done anywayz
i think a lot of times the reason i am unable to keep focus on God alone and resist temptations to worry is that i haven't put God in a place where He's suppose to be in my life. IN the center, on the top, the reference point, whatever you call it. Realizing that my life evoles around HIm is esay, but actually live out that truth isn't as easy.
anyway i gotta get back to chem and then go eat w/ the mand ccf ppl =D for dinner which i still donno where it is hehe

can i stay here forever?

there are times.. when i'm full of confidence to say that God is great.. God is faithful, He's always there for me.. all glory to HIm! amen! but y can't those times stay forever?
Y do i lose my focus when the wave crush into my life?
Can i stay w/ forever.. in prayer.. in spirit and truth? that's my prayer God that I can always stay at your feet whatever the circumstances.
I'm longing to trust and love you more.

Your power is made perfect in weakness

If i'm able to finish studying for the exams on time, that would only be the demonstration of Your Might and Power.
I'm gonna give up reling on my strength but on YOurs
so help me God
cuz yah i really need your help

tartu?

most likely to live at tartu next yr
that means i hafta cook myself =P oh man.. this is gonna be interesting!
gonna study hard hard and hard this week! hafta hafta!! for God! to complete the task! =)
i wil no longer be a froshie! =)
God, wow.. u are soo awesome cuz really .. i have no idea i would get this far ... if it isn't for You =)
to be at this position and ready.. willing to let you take ahold of my life..
change me God.. and really i need cleansing everyday
God u are truly everything i need =)

clean hands and pure heart

before anything started.... i need to have clean hands and pure heart.. not that i will be perfect.. but at least get outa my old sinful self.. in order to stand in the presence of God and lead the fellowship...
i just realized that i can be soo diff... soo.. determined if i want to be... kinda like edie.. really demanding =P
oh well... if God calls me to be a leader for this lil while.. then let it be.. help me not to care much about what ppl think of me =)
man...i really really need to work on my writing skills during the summer
gonna have 1 art and 1 soc sci course next yr .. so excited!

it's 11:10, 10 min passed my bed time =P
so my head is totally not working
pass my reflective mood as well...just wanna say that looking back this yr...and my whole life.. God's finger touched every moment of my life w/o me knowing at most times =)
actually came this close to be the girl that i wanted to be all my life, and now i changed my plan rather God has his plan and He "dragged" me into it =P literally so i had to change my plan

fadded childhood dreams.... nah God will turn it into something better i'm sure =)
at any rate it's 11:12 i need to get to bed

i just realized that you are all that i have God... nothing in this world that appears to be mine.. friends, family, school, marks.. my ability to breathe, walk, talk, see.. they don't belong to me... they are only given to me by God for a while.. it's up to him to give and take away

on Christ the Solid Rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand

Gal 1:10 =)

i am here to please you, God and no one else! =)

chem test on tue!! God help me... i know you have before.. help me this time.. i put my trust in you! =) and this life of mine.. is all about YOU ... i'm only a mirror to reflect your glory =)

saw the prettiest picture painted my real life today.. looking out my window.. AT RICHMOND HILL lol.. saw a dad w/ his lil toddler.. so cute!! ... and saw them walking together.. moms tend to hold on to the kids' hand.. but dads usually don't.. i stood there watching them walking away..
it's kinda like my walk w/ God... there are times when God hold my hands.. and there are times.. i just need to follow him...

after all those years of being a Christian! i have finally realize that man! life is not about me!!! i had no idea.. everytime i prayed for God to take away the pain .. question God y certain things happen to me... proud about my accomplishments that came from God in the first place.. get pissed off at ppl b/c of unfairness, get cranky for no reason
everytime i do .. that i'm stealing God's glory! exactly! i had no idea.. totally revolution to me! wow... and i tried for a day to give God the glory He deserves which is the max.. i failed that task... but i'm learning and trying .. everyday.. to keep that my goal of life.. TO GIVE GOD GLORY!
wow... =)
Lord, you know what my heart desires b4 i even speak it.. and i pray that according to your lovingkindness... it will come true someday =)