w/ all the changes coming up, I feel much like the caterpillar during Metamorphosis... looking into the mirror, and i c myself and also a stranger that i can't even recognize...
feel like i am caught up in a typhone... and everything that i am familiar of are passing me by and no matter how fast i try to chase after them.. they are gone forever
God, it's just that things are changing too much, but i still want to stay the same... maybe i just woke up into another person's life... maybe my life is still there waiting for me go back
can i go back to the summer nitez i spent w/ cousins running around the streets?
can i be a lil girl again, so i can still sit on my daddy's shoulder, the tallest place i could be at back then?

"the Lord's unfailing love and mercy still continue, fresh as the morning, as sure as the sunrise. The Lord is all I have, and so I put my hope in him." Lam 3:21-24

U brought me thru almost 6 yrs of chinese education (that was brutal), u brought me thru 2 yrs of readjustment in Canada
U were there when i went back to China again
Now looking back i can laugh at my tears when my lil chicks died.. and i can smile at gr. 8 grad nite now... they seem so small now, but it was soo big of a deal back then
5 yrs from now, would i laugh at this blog too?
i guess... there is no mountain too big for Almighty God
faithful Father, hold my hands, cuz i am scared to grow up