grateful

turned 18 yesterday... one word to describe me rite now is grateful
thankful for watching over me in the past 18 yrs.. even during times when i didn't acknowledge Ur presence.. now to look back u were there anywayz..
sometimes sitting in the car... i zoned out while my parents talk about all the financial problems.. how they gonna pay for things when my mom lost her job..(it was ur plan isn't God? u closed a door, but u opened a window for us.. mom lost her job and dad just found a new one.. may not be the best pay but it's enough =D) all the chatters fade out in the background.. i look into the big blue sky and i can always c U smile rite back at me... those are the moments all the problems about school, uni, jobs seem so small in comparison to ur grace ur unfailing love.. i just pray that i can always be grateful no matter what.. God i am never too sure about anything in life.. but i am certain about anything i will never change my mind... one of things is Ur love.. i may have doubted u, but i never drift away... i'll never let go
bless this summer.. let it one that is pleasing in ur eyes.. i am a sinner, but u desire a sincere heart that struggles and seek after you.. God i failed on so many tasks and fell on so many roads.. but don't give up on me.. i will get up each time for u, b/c u have given me soo much more