i've been keeping this in for too long, prolly cuz i don't even know what was bothering me so much.... couldn't put my finger on it
well... i guess thanx to my manger who was so mean to me on the fone, i finally let it all out
it was one of those sobbing that can't stop no matter how hard i try...

u know God, u never asked me if i wanted to move to Canada, where is the freewill in that?
i had to walk into a room full of 7th graders, most of them made fun of ppl for a living, esp an esl liked me
i didn't exactly enjoyed been cornered in the girls washroom, and sit alone in the caf

well the point is that i don't want change, don't want to go to uni...don't want to grow up, be responsible, mature. maybe i didn't know back then as a 12 year old in china, but i know now... i wasn't ready for all the changes following a 20 hour plane ride
and either am i ready for this