I cried today.... no.. not just cried... but tears just pour down..... like rain lol.... i cried buckets in front of my parents, and by myself... all the disappointments about school, friends, family, my dad's job, my sleep.. blah blah.... i let them all out today.. in tears... i just cried really loud... don't care about what other ppl think of me anymore.. don't care about how strong i hafta be.. cuz i am weak... lol... everyone is weak...some times... i feel like i can't take the pressure anymore.. it's too much.... and fell down flat on my face for so many times.. not just once.. but everyday everyday.... but when i fall down.... God always help me to get rite back on my feet again.... always.... "Jesus wept" became my favouriate verse now.. lol... cuz my mom could only hug me... but God! =D He wept w/ me
The fact is i am still scared.... stressed out w/ all the tests... and i know there gonna be lotta troubles down the road waiting for me... i will still get scared.. but God will always be there for me.. it may be kinda cliche thing to say but that's the only thing i am holding on to.. the only thing that is keeping me alive.... keeping pressing onward..
still got tears on my face.... i've never cried like this for sooooooo long....... being bottled up, finally get it all go... and i feel much better now!! Now i wept w/ God... it's much better now =D this is life i guess... bittersweet... not too bad, God.... not bad at all in fact =D crying really helps for me i guess