Rise up from the mud, we raise up our holy hands to praise the Holy One. I still believe in midset of all the dissappointments.. I am pressing on ward, so I can finish a good race. Let joy and graditude fill my heart, God! I faltered so many times, but You always carry me through. After everything... I still believe with my heart and soul in You, and I trust You with my future. Whatever tomorrow brings, You are still in control.

River God by Capstone:
But when I close my eyes and feel You rushing by
I know that time brings change and change takes time
But when the sunset comes
My prayer would be just one
That You might pick me up and notice that I am,
just a little smoother in your hands
Sometimes raging wild,
sometimes swollen high,
but never have I known this river dry

You are changing me everyday... but it hurts to change... to abandon my old ways. I know it is good for me, but part me long to escape from Your hands. Then i realize that the i am safest in your hands. Your living water will always quench my thrist for your grace is always sufficient. So, God do whatever You want with me... change me, pierce me... Let Your will be done! One thing I ask: I can endure all things in You, so plz don't leave me. All I need is your presence. Give me strength to carry on! Come and carry me! I place my trust in You!