Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about everything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."-Philippians 4:4-7
Is this month suppose to be a stress month or something? Everyone around me seemed to be in a middle of a nervous break down! I mean everyone! No one is got the peace of God that Paul was speaking of.... the printer's sound is driving me crazy! Why can't my dad stop printing!!!!
Breathe! oh ok I am okay now! I am so edgy these days. The tiniest thing can jump me, and that goes to everyone around me. Everyone (or feels like it) is neither too busy or too indifferent to care. I should be doing my math hwk, but I just want to calm my heart first. Just turned to the parable of the lost son, and I wondered what happened to him after his father forgave him. Is he grateful to be even be with the father, or he went back to his old habbits? What about me? I am suppose to be rejoicing! But my heart does not have enough room for joy. The stress and worry crowd the joy out. Shouldn't I be like the lost son happy to be even accepted by the Father? I am so lost, so confused about the future... uncertain what's next after school, after university? What should I do for the rest of my life?
Lord, comfort me! No one else can! Everyone needs Your comfort! What should a forgiven son behave like? Grateful or fretful? yeah I thought too. Especially when I am forgiven by the God! Shouldn't I be grateful! Shouldn't my heart be filled with joy! =) Next morning, when ppl ask me "how are u". Instead of the usual complain, I should say ...hmmmm.... "The great Creator calls me His own, isn't that great?" (I won't acutally say that, but my heart should!)
Lord! I am still scared, afraid, lost, lonely, and above all stressed out! Will You come to my heart, and fill it with joy! Renew my faith in Your, Lord, because after all I may not know where I will end up after university. BUT one thing I do know is that I will be with you forever, enjoy eternity! Until then.... things aren't that great, but U will always be with me!