ok! hmmm... where to start, cuz a lot of stuff happened these days! Let me start with last nite, I was on the verge of a nervous break down last nite. I mean 2 tests on the same day isn't that bad, but Geo and Calc just make me wanna puke! So.... the most natural thing I happened, I worried. I worried to the point when my body wanted to sleep, but my mind just kept on poping what-ifs. hahaha I was solving a geometry question in my mind and listening to my CD player, when I finally dozed off. That was prolly around 2 or 3 in the morning.
That was the angry, spoiled, ungrateful, braddy and whiney version of Carol. Seriously, don't mind her! (But I want to whine!) There she goes again, but if I think it through again about last nite and today. God was there, and he was not only there to walk me through my "big obstacles" (which weren't that big), he carried me through. Thanx Edith for your encouragement: "God promised a safe landing, not a calm passage." When my mom came back from work, her words finally put me to sleep, because she said God knows how much effort I am putting in school and how hard I am working. Romans 8:28 plus apple juice and cholocate chipped cookies kept me awake during the day. Calculus test was not that hard, I wish that I did well on it. But Geometry was another different story. I barely finished the last two questions, hopefully the teacher will not be so hard on marking.
Oh guess what? I got to be a math tutor/super nerd. It really isn't a big deal, since almost everyone who applied got in. I feel like the most precious thing for me is time, and I barely get to spend any time to chill with friends or hang with parents. Why did I waste so much time during the summer? Which I can trade some "time" with the past hehe. I don't even have more than 5 minutes to spare on the fone with mom or online with friends. It's just the books, me and my slow and confused brain that is working over-time. I think I should find a balance between school and spending time with people. I mean a smile on the face wouldn't waste anytime, but man! sometimes, it really hurts to smile in school. The smell of the building gives me headaches. (Here she goes again!) I should still be patience and kind to people even tho my schedule is killing my back and my neck. (for the last time! carol! stop whining!) I mean at the end of my life, what matter the most are family, friends, not marks, and certainly not that stupid geometry question that I did wrong! (ok, u can whine a bit about the test, it was hard.)
Ok, where was I? Oh yeah.. PA day tomorrow. I get to catch my breath, and get some rest before the next challenge comes along. And in the mean time, God still loves me, no matter how angry, spoiled, ungrateful, braddy and whiney I sometimes can be. His love covers them. Drinking from Your well, Lord is certainly refreshing! I am gonna go catch up with my sleep now, and stop trying to solve geo questions in my head!