looking back

Last night, I happened to be very bored and tired. I opened up my drawer that contains all the precious memories of the past. All the birthday cards and holiday cards from friends and family. I don't why I brought a lot of "garbage" to Canada, but I decided not to throw them away as they contain the fragrance of the past and fill in the contents of my memories. I read my diaries and had great time laughing at how silly and immature I sounded. Back then the Carol of the past thought that by 16 I would be mature enough to know "everything"! Yet I am still uncertain and confused about the future. The things that seemed so serious and important back then became jokes to me now. I wonder what would I feel like reading my own blog after 10 years or even 1 year. I stop focus on my problems of the present and view them as part of my life, events that will bring tears and joy in the future. My perspectives broaden over the years and will continue to expand. I realize that who I am now is only an immature version of who I will be in the future. As I continue to grow in Christ, I determine to let God transform me from the inside out.