A Love Worth Giving

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.
- 1 John 4:9-12

As the school load increase, I will have less time to spend on my blog, I hope I will have more time alone with God. I just got a new book by Max Lucado, "A Love Worth Giving". I am going to read it slow this time and savor it! The first chapter already opened up the eyes of my heart and brought back a moment in the past (not long ago tho, I sound so old lol!). I was working at dominion and from the corner of my eyes I caught a glimpse of my dad staring at me. There was so much love in his eyes that it startled me, because he never shows it. I was at the same time scared that I will never be able to return that love. It reminds me of God's unconditional love, his unfailing promise for an unworthy sinner like me. Sometimes, I am scared to look at the cross too, because I am certain that I cannot return that kind of love. Then it hits me; God wants me to share his love with others. Lucado says, "The secret of loving is living loved." We try so hard to love others, but we are missing a step: to be first loved by God. "Many people tell us to love. Only God gives us the power to do so."
I would love to say that I love the people around me with patience and kindness, but God and I both know that it is a complete lie. However, I am learning to love others just as God first loved me. And in the process of this struggle, I stare at the cross with tears in my eyes.