Don't mind me being frank, God, but U ask a lot from us.. then again U gave a lot more than we can ever repay... but U ask a lot too.. from Abraham u asked for issac..man that was some test.. a good one too.. but a hard one to past...i guess from that story i learned a lot about myself .. cuz these past few months.. mainly last semester... u asked me for my "issac" too, meaning school, marks, future, my dream.. all the things that I hold so dear to me.. u ask me to give them up, so i can truly enjoy all of God. maybe i didn't know it, but those things were taking place higher than God in my heart, and I had to lose my life in order to gain it again.

"blessed are the poor", maybe there is a different way of looking at poor, after almost sacrificing Issac, Abraham was "poor" materially, Job was "poor" materially at the end too. They have material possessions, but at the same time they possess nothing but God. They realized that nothing acutally belong to them. It's interesting tho to look at the "Lord of rings", where ppl just want to own the ring. In reality, nothing belongs to me, all that i have is lent to me by God. If u wanna snap ur finger, I can lose them all. What's the point of holding on to something that aren't even gonna last as long as I do. C.s. Lewis said " a man who has God and everything else have no more than a man who has only God." It's not that i shouldn't love other ppl or enjoy life, but they can only be below you, God. Seek first the kingdom of God, and everything else.. doesn't matter about everything else anymore when I already have the Marker of everything else =D
As I deer.. so my soul longs for You!