ever since retreat.. i have been going downhill... but when i fall.. God still pick me up every single time
it was so much easier to stay strong in faith when u are surrouded by such a strong cloud of witness day in and out for 4 days.. just amazingly easy.. like breathing.. to think about God and just meditate on His word
but then at school.. demand of work and everything crush down on me... and when i neglect quiet times w/ God.. things start to fall apart.. more prone to fall.. to listen to Satan's luring voice

God.... i've always been this girl who changes w/ the envirnment w/ the stituation.. but i want to be deeply rooted in you
like the tree.. when the wind flows the root goes deeper ... and i want to be a tree.. rooted in you
so whatever happens.. u are my rock and refuge

God there are just soo many things bothers me rite now.. hinders my relationship w/ u
and all boils down to the fact
that i want to be in control, i want the attention, it's all about me kinda selfishness
Lord.. would u plz plz.. help me.. guide me lead me... so that i can one day hear you say " Well done!" .... i can't wait =D