i don't understand how someone can be sooo rational... so... unearthly... so up there... like aliens or something
i'm tryin God... taking my eyes off myself.. i look up the sky it's still blue... and it doesn't hurt at all to smile.. smile from my heart.. hope is still here... i'm still hold onto You and standing on the rock
it's just i still don't understand y..... i hafta surpress all the feelings to follow your will... i don't see your WIll.. it's not clear at all...... i am still trusting... but y do i hafta bite my lips to trust God.. i want to trust and surrender w/ a joyful heart.. would you help me God?
i want to try =) i didn't give up at all.. i am not defeated!! i will keep on fighing b/c i know the victory is yours! God ... help me!! keep all the selfish thoughts far from me!
sigh... maybe i never really loved him unselfishly... always asking for something .. instead of giving back =(
feel like i caused so much pain in ppls' lives... gosh... sigh.. i'm trying to love ... agape... the word is so foreign to me
i can't do it by myself .... God plz help me -