One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. - Psalm 27: 4
Only God knows y there are so many sufferings... only He knows... we are here to prove our trust in Him period! we are closer to God when we suffer.
U didn't hafta leave the angels, u didn't hafta fight w/ Satan for 40 days, u didn't hafta heal the blind or touched the untouchable. U didn't have to forgive me... y should u forgive me? I constantly see my sins... too many of them I get so disgusted of myself... yet u still love me? This is too good to be true.. but it is true! Since i can't find a logical reason for Ur grace, then i don't need one for the wrongs of the world. U didn't hafta die on a cross, U didn't hafta forsake Ur son.. U didn't hafta be the lamb to be slaughtered.... no need! The world turned against U, we broke ur heart countless times! U really didn't have to do this....
BUT I am glad u did! I am thankful that u did! I'd rather be the prodigal son than his older brother... i have no right to complain about other ppl.... i am bad enuf
Lord.. help me that I can sense Ur presense at ALL TIMES! I can feel Ur love and grace at all times.
My biggest fear is not darkness... my biggest fear is love.... pretty ironic but I was afraid to return Ur love.. i was afraid to love other ppl.... afraid of getting hurt... afraid of falling
Perhaps the pain on the cross touched me.. perhaps Ur patience.. perhaps Ur unconditonal love or the suffering i was going thru..Whatever it was... i was not afraid anymore.. not afraid of falling in love w/ U anymore.. not afraid of loving other ppl anymore.. Fear and God clash... and the my victory is won..i don't hafta live in fear anymore.. thank you... thank you... Love always.... ur lil daughter
p.s. sorry for breaking ur heart so many times.. sorry for the things that i have done wrong in the past or i will do in the future.. i know u already forgave me... just need to say that I am really sorry!!!