Rainy Day

In past few days, the temperature had been way up there and I could just feel the heat burning from the ground. However, yesterday and today has been rainy days. You know one of those days that just make you want to cry, because the sun is not out there. Okay, maybe rainy days only have that effect on me. Although I cannot see the sun, but I know the sun is there. Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see (Hebrews 11:1). For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently (Romans 8:24,25). God has given us all a promise, although none have seen heaven before death, we have the hope to know that an eternal home is prepared for those who love Him. I have struggled many times with the concept of heaven and eternity, but my belief never reached certainty. Doubts still wondering in my mind, as the concept of heaven is too profound for me to understand. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. "I am making everything new!" (Revelation 21:4,5) What will be the new order of things? I like to look up to the sky on sunny days, because I could get a glimpse of heaven. I like to look out the window on an airplane, because the clouds are just too beautiful to miss. But what will heaven truly be like without my finite worldly imaginations? I guess the answer to that question can only be answered when I go back to the Father. In the mean time, I have hope and faith for a comfy and eternal home with the Lord. Remember! Just because you cannot see the sun does not mean it is not there! =P

I just had a very long and deep conversation with my grandma. She came to me and talked about her worries. She worries about everything: my relatives in China, grandpa and her health, my education, my cousins, and my parents' jobs. I just repeated over and over again that worries can not change things. I am not sure if she listened, but I truly wish that she would one day come to know the Lord. "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matt. 11:28-30) Just like how the song more to this lifegoes: there is more to this life, more than just living and dying. Last time, I went back to China, I could just feel worries and burdens about the future weigh hard in their hearts. Work! House! University! Heath! Food! Too many! They are blinded by what can be seen, but what is unseen is much greater and much comforting. Jesus not only use His precious blood to cross out all of our sins; He also offer to take our burdens. In Him, there is joy, hope and peace. I wanted to make everyone stop worrying and tell them that there is Someone up there who can take up your burdens. My life on Earth would only get harder as the days go on, but I just pray that my faith would increase as the days pass by. I would one day face all the problems that my grandma is facing and have faced. How would I react when I see my loved ones pass away? How would I react when I lose my job? Hard days are coming. Is my faith strong enough to sustain me? No! It's not my faith that I should put my trust in. It's my faith in the Lord. I will not be ready to face the hardships the Lord prepared for me, but God will be. Yes! I will never be ready, but He is always ready. Whatever the road of Tomorrow brings, God will hold my hands to carry me through. I am listening to Calmer of the Storm by Downhere. Jesus was sleeping during the storm, because He knows worrying cannot add a single hour to his life. The Lord that has the power to rebuke the winds and the waves also loves me. I sound so depressing today! Probably because of the rain, it got to me. Didn't Paul tell us to rejoice in the Lord always! I guess I am just too bored these days. I should be thankful of the lonely times, because only during these times I could truly see the glimpse of His face.